aha, I have been reminded!!

A little while ago I was perusing some of my favorite blogs and I believe it was Wendie Hurrell that said I needed to post some of my older sculpts on my blog so I could share them with my readers (said while welcoming me to the blog world on her blog page, thank you for that as well...very kind of you!!). So that's exactly what I am going to do. Thanks Wendie!!  (All have been sold except the magnets and those won't be for sale until after the middle of this November :) ) Please excuse any mess on my desk...back then I was more practicing then anything and wasn't too concerned with [pictures like I am now. And I am a right brained artist after all!! ;)

 Fast Eddie...with no clothes...for some reason I can't find any pics of him clothed!

 Brother and Sister Commissioned sculpt

 My Inner Demon. Not for sale.

 Carlos....Comissioned

 Madeline...Commissioned

 Michael.....gift.

 Grumpy old man magnet.

 SMILE magnet

 I have absolutely no idea where I was going with this poor uggo....

 Hippie dude magnet....chillaxin'! (with bad comb over!)

 Blueberry Kisses....not available

 Punkin's!

 Old Gypsy Lady.....sold.

 Awahili the hula girl....commissioned

 Reggie.....gift.

Daisy the Elf Bride....Mascot for Tawnis Moon....now known as One Crazy Betty!!

Sometimes things aren't perfect.

I've had an interest in paperclay dolls now for some time. I will admit that I have not done a lot of reading on them. Not because I haven't wanted to...I just haven't found the information that I am looking for I would guess. It seems there aren't a lot of paperclay doll tuts out there. I have a friend that makes them and more then anything I guess I would have learned from just watching her cute little videos that she puts on youtube! ((Hi Gia...aka Sugar Artz) I like her style of the dolls she creates...and yet i do NOT want to copy them. But I wanted to try it on my own. The only thing that made sense to me was styrofoam for an armature. Yes...I did do the cone and ball. I wanted to make a girl!! I've never worked with styrofoam really either...so this was a little challenge. But I will say I fell in LOVE with the paperclay...I even like DAS, as that's what I used on her dress. DAS is a P.I.T.A. for how fast it dries on your hands...paperclay is like heaven. I love paperclay now as much as I do polymer. I am not a sander. I HATE to sand anything. But I also like the rough texture too that paperclay leaves behind and I do my best to keep it as smooth as possible when working with it. Wow...it makes your hands work out too...I had a harder time smoothing the paperclay then I ever did with polymer, but I think I was using too much at a time. Anyhow...here is my little witch doll. She is not complete yet. I will still dress her more fully...cure the genesis paint I used on her and give her more features and better eyes (GOD it is HARD to make the eyes match in paperclay too...LOL) My doll has black dreds and will be holding up the triple moon goddess symbol when I am done. More pics to follow. But yes...one eye is bigger then the other....lol.....just like some people, all sculpts are not created equal. I'm gonna go with it, it what she seems to want me to do! And don't even ask me how to make arms...I have no clue...but someday I will know!

The Inner Demon Contest.

Well, for a long time I have wanted to get into sculpting the uglies of the bunch. I feel I am better suited for that then for the pretty fairies and such. They just don't usually fit my style unless they are more natural looking in appearance. Like they live on the forest floor. :)

Then I started getting into a bunch of stuff in my personal life and was just searching my soul for many answers to many questions I've had along the way. I think we all do this from time to time. I was struggling with quite a few things for awhile and suddenly it hit me. I needed to use my know-how to rid myself of my inner demons. I was seeing a therapist at the time who thought that was a horrible idea. I see it as it's not going to hurt anything more then talk therapy might already do. but...with not feeling well and a surgery I went through (not to mention all the pain I had to live with before the surgery)...the idea just kind of stalled.

UNTILLLLLL....ODA put up their inner demon contest of which I almost didn't make...thank goodness that they changed the enter date so I, as well as a few others could still join. AHA!! Yes, that was the answer I was looking for. I knew that it would get me going on that project and kick me into high gear with it. Sure...there are some freaking AWESOME prizes a person could win and that would be great and all....but now I am so into it, that's not what I am even thinking about. It's interesting to see what my inner demon looks like. Well, one of them anyhow out of about 2500. (Kidding) Of course I had an idea of what she looked like while I was sketching her out...but wow...she is emerging with such emotion now.  This one is my main demon. It wakes me up in the morning...or afternoon, depending on how I feel. It's what drives me...it gets me out of bed, well most days. It's the only thing that I feel actually "protects" me from becoming a victim again. So while this demon is not pretty (as some would be...like a seductress...etc)....and she is so sad and misunderstood and her aches and pains and complaints fall on deaf ears....I think I will keep her around for awhile. I might be purging some of her bad sides but I need to keep her around for her good ones until I learn how to deal with things better on my own. She is that nasty toned voice or that strong arm that occasionally emerges when someone says or does something to me that I don't feel is a correct way to handle such a situation. She is the one that makes me re-coil when I feel danger is near. She's also the one that has the nicotine habit...and the caffeine habit...and the one that collects all the precious little odds and ends for my studio that I may never use...and lets it pile high on my table and desk. LOL.

There is a kicker to all of this and I am hoping that I will be able to work it all out. There is another sculpt that goes with this one. It's a two parter. For me, its very emotional and I hope to express that to the audience. I hope to be able to invoke the same pain that I feel with all of this, yet not project it on to anyone else. I can't give anymore details then that...sorry. Otherwise I would be giving it all away. But I am sincerely grateful to Eneida and Tenderspirit for the opportunity of this contest. And for everything Tenderspirit has done for me. Thanks Ladies. :)